Somehow I went from being bored to death to busy to death. I think it happened sometime in January but I just can't be sure. It is nice, though. Some aspects of the busyness I am really enjoying, like Zumba and beta reading, but having to juggle things and being so busy is not as much fun. With as busy as I have been lately there are still a couple of other endeavors that I so wish that I could pursue. I've felt disappointed, frustrated and hemmed in because at this time in my life I can't do everything that I want to. I've almost come to terms with it all. Most of the time I'm good but then I get to thinking "what if...."
Today in Sacrament the high counsel speaker, Brother Winterton, said something that I needed to hear:
"Just because you can do it doesn't mean you have to/should."
His point being, don't make yourself so busy that you don't have time for your family. "Huh. That's true," is what I thought as I sat their in the chapel. Now I still have time for my family but I'm tired and stressed out and I do try to figure out ways to entertain Elise so I can work on other things while she is awake. And I've been grumpy occasionally! So yeah, I probably would benefit from evaluating my activities and deciding what I can set aside. Right now is my season to raise Elise, and to Zumba! And those other things will either still be there when I can do them or they just won't matter anymore. Elise will always matter though one day she won't need me as much.
Even though I feel so busy and, at times, overwhelmed, I have been blessed with this busyness. Zumba has been a huge blessing for my physical and emotional health. Working Mondays for a few hours has been a blessing financially. Being in Young Womens is time consuming but the blessings are many. And I have enjoyed beta reading immensely, though that will be ending in March and is definitely something that I can set aside for later even though I COULD and WANT TO keep pursuing it right now.
One of the great blessings of this busyness is knowing how aware of me my Heavenly Father is and how good He is at perfect timing! He knows what I want and need in my life and when I need it most and when it will be the most beneficial to me and when the time is just right. It gives me the courage to set aside things I want to do right now for later, knowing that He knows that those things are important to me and that if they are good for me that they will happen later, in His right time. This will not be my only opportunity to do those things that I want to do right now.
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